I LOVE my job. I HATE my job.

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Is there anyone in the world who doesn’t at some time HATE their job? I’m not talking about perpetually disliking what you are doing, wanting to quit, gotta get out of here feeling, I’m talking about the days or stretches of days that pop up where you just feel like you’re being ground up. Where you can’t get in the groove and gain traction. I’m having one of those stretches of days. My response has been to just put my head down and keep grinding. Now I’m not so sure that is the right thing to do.

I love my job. And I realize that the opportunity to work in sports on some of the coolest stadium and arena projects in the world (see below) is a responsibility that MANY people would trade with me. So why the rut that I can’t seem to grind myself out of?

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When I sat down to get started at work this morning, I had this thought run through my head: Does my career bring me satisfaction and add value to my life? Like many big questions that hit me like that, the best way for me to process it is to write. I guess I’ve not had too many big questions in my head recently since I haven’t written a blog post in over 3 months. Hmmm, maybe there is a correlation here.

Since mid-May I’ve been pretty bogged down in the weeds. We had another awesome year of the Jay Bilas Skills Camp in June, but there were a lot of little details we had to work through the last few weeks of May leading up to it. It was time consuming and mind numbing. At that same time, we have been working through the final phases of three huge projects at work. The end of projects for us is always when we’re looking at the details closely, figuring out what we’ve missed, trying to fix little bugs, and going over software incessantly trying to find those bugs. It is exhausting detail work that can only be done onsite and requires regular uncomfortable conversations with clients who want everything to be perfect the first time.

On top of all of those mind-numbing, detail driven work, we bought a new house, which we love, but it was painfully slow to get it closed and it is a lot of work.

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So I’ve been in the weeds. I’ve been moving information around. Sitting on conference calls to discuss details. Working in the minutiae. It’s been a long time since I sat 30-40 minutes aside at the beginning of the day to be mindful, ponder some big question, and write down my thoughts. It seems like a long time since I climbed up to the second floor of life and looked out at the horizon.

On the horizon you can see that there are great things coming – you can see the sun rising to a new day, you can see the beautiful mountains in the distance, you can see the vast lake reaching out before you. And in life you can see all of the opportunity that is out there. You can see the new challenges and new projects that are coming your way. You can start to think about how you are going to win the next great project or be a part of something innovative.  The horizon is what energizes me – it’s what makes me excited to get to work each morning.

If like me, you’ve been sitting in the weeds dealing with details a lot lately, do what I’m going to do the rest of the week – fill your open moments with time looking at the professional horizon because there is so much great opportunity out there and you can’t see it if you’ve always got your head down. And when you allow yourself to look out at the horizon, you might realize, like I have, that you actually LOVE your job.

My Future’s So Bright, I Gotta Be Patient?

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Ever heard the song “Future’s So Bright?” The jist is that the future is so bright, I’ve gotta wear shades. It is your standard 80’s one hit wonder, but I love the song. As I sit here on a sunny Friday afternoon, this is a highly relevant song for me. My family and I are healthy and happy, we’re refinancing our house and saving 8 years’ worth of payments, we planned some fun spring trips this week, and I’ve got more business lined up than my team can handle. The future certainly IS bright!

The hard part for me on a day like today is to be patient. Staying in the present when there is excitement about the future is challenging. Staying in the moment, however, is paramount if that bright future is going to play out the way I want it to turn out. I’ve found that if I start allowing myself to live in the future, some unforeseen sadness creeps in or an expense that I wasn’t expecting shows up. Fun times in the future with friends don’t live up to expectations when I fixate on them for months, and business deals that I thought were “a lock” always seem to fall apart at the last minute whenever I squeeze too hard to get the contract.

So today I’m just going to enjoy the sunshine AND the bright future. I’m going to wear my shades and stay present with the people and opportunities that are right here with me now. The future will take care of itself if I’m patient enough to wait until it gets here.